Love Him when I am down and out

I have reached an impasse in my life. Career wise I wanted to make drastic changes which can only be effected with my going back to college to get my masters degree. I found a part time program in the college of my dreams. I have always wanted to attend this particular Ivy league college. Don't ask me why, for there are other Ivy league colleges in the U.S, but for me, the culmination of all my dreams ended with me attending this college. As the program was part time I could still attend college and work at the same time, which was a major criteria for me. Finding the college and the program seemed to be the easy part. After that everything else seemed to go down hill. I needed permission from my company authorizing me to attend the class, that was one of the stipulations of the program. My company was not in the habit of allowing their employees to attend school while under their employment. The tuition was astronomical and I was having a hard time getting student loan. The list of obstacles are endless. Needless to say, I was feeling quite disenchanted and discouraged. To distract myself, I flipped on the idiot box, planning to drown all my thoughts with the mindless occupation of staring at some TV show, As chance would have it, the movie that was on, " Facing Giants" or some such thing,I got to see the movie halfway through. It was a story of a coach, who faces some real hard knocks of life. When it looks like his complete life is falling apart, He goes out to the meadows by his home and looking at the early morning sunrise, he raises his hands to the sky and cries" No matter what, I will love You LORD!" It was a very poignant moment.It made me question my relationship with the Almighty.Did I have the strength of soul to declare my love and my loyalty when I am down and out?. For that is true love isn't it? without strings attached.


I will praise You

When I am beaten and defeated
Pushed down by insurmountable force
I will Praise You Lord
I will give You thanks

When tears course streams down my cheeks
And it seems all is lost
With no fight left in me
I will Praise You Lord
I will give You thanks

Though none may stand by me
Alone I face the worldly giants
I will Praise You Lord
I will give You thanks

Though I stumble and fall
And may seem never to rise again
I will Praise You Lord
I will give You thanks

For You have shown me love
Unconditional and without measure
Though I regarded You not
And acknowledged You not

Lord I give You love
A love tested and tempered in the furnace of affliction
For You have shown me what it is to love
Through trials and tribulations I face
Lord I give You love
I give You my All.